I haven’t been able to listen to Alicia Keys no matter how bad I want to, and no matter how much I love her.
I have been a fan of her music for years, but she was ruined for me during Super Bowl 50 in San Francisco this year.
It’s not her make-up stance. I don’t wear make up myself, and I haven’t all my life.
It was actually nothing she did, but I simply get angry when I listen to her music now.
I get angry because when I try to listen to her music on my iPod, I think about how I was turned away to see her during her performance at Super Bowl City that Saturday before the game.
Probably thousands of people were turned away because the venue was at capacity and no more people were being let in until after the show.
We had got to the area where Super Bowl City was at 4:00pm, and the show didn’t start until 7:00 or 8:00pm, so we thought that was early enough to get in there. We were going to mingle with the other events inside, then make our way to the stage when the time came.
I was excited to hear “Girl on Fire”, “Unbreakable”, “Fire We Make”, and hopefully some of her classics: “Woman’s Worth”, “Diary”, “Girlfriend”, “If I Ain’t Got You”, and more.
But, we never made it inside. A lot of people didn’t make it inside.
I was angry because I thought the point of holding the Super Bowl and events in different places every year was so different parts of the country could experience it. I got to see Matt Nathanson, The Band Perry, and One Republic the other days of Super Bowl City, but I did not get to see Alicia Keys the last night-the biggest show.
We knew we wouldn’t be able to get in, so we decided to leave. I missed an opportunity to see Alicia Keys live for free.
Then I saw all of the articles written on her performance, and then I saw she took a moment to address the police shootings that had been occurring and Black Lives Matter, and I was like ugh. I should have been there. I bet blacks were underrepresented inside.
I just wanted to be in there for that part of the Super Bowl Experience…
And, that feeling still slithers through my body whenever a song by her comes on.
I can no longer enjoy the music she makes because I always think of how I was not able to see her that day.
It may be silly to some of you, but imagine: the opportunity to see a music icon for FREE and then a small obstruction occurring preventing it from happening for you.
It was a once in a lifetime opportunity most likely, and I missed it.
I still try to listen to her music, but I cannot tune out the thoughts that begin to travel back to that Saturday of Super Bowl City. lol.
But, some days I am so consumed by the music that I can listen freely and thoughtlessly and enjoy it.
*Do you like her music? What’s your favorite song by her?